So yesterday I didn’t get a chance to blog. Okay, so I just didn’t. Mainly because I was having a bad day and secondly after having a bad day I just wanted to go to sleep. So let me tell you how this day had me about to grab my gym bag and no not to hit the gym but to swing.
Anyone who has ever been in a fight, when a girl grabs her bag that means she’s about to suit up to do some damage. That was how I felt because I was all in my feelings. All week I was super excited to see my doctor for my appointment. I was ready to see all the positive from a year ago. Now it was positive until we got on the topic of my belly and this past surgery. I guess because losing the weight isn’t an issue the issue is more the swelly belly. I love when I wake up and I am all the way on. Belly looking flat flat and my body looking good in my clothes. UNTIL, the day I wake up and look like I was carrying a secret love child and then I am not feeling it. Well during my appointment I was seen by a male student who I tried to explain how I felt and he gave me the most distant stare. I was looking like really, engage, care, offer tips, do something but NOPE! He just stared at me like I had 3 breasts.
Let’s back it up to earlier in the day I had to professionally tell someone off. I consider myself to be queen of the go off but in certain arenas you have to behave accordingly. Well I did that until the other person went left and I had to bring them back to reality. So I was still fuming from that interaction, the student doctor was blind and not getting it, and the night before I had gotten into an argument with my husband over trash. Yes over a trash can-lawd save all the trash cans lids in our community Jesus! So at this point I am at take my earrings off mood. So I did what any responsible adult would do, I just took a deep breath rolled my eyes at the student doctor, and waited for my doctor to come in. As soon as she saw me she said what’s wrong. I put my husband on hold, put the student doctor on hold, put the day on hold, and told her how I felt about all of this process since the surgery. I don’t think I had verbally talked about it until yesterday. Yes I blogged about it and mostly on the physical stuff but now its been 3 months and a little over 2 on these hormone replacement therapy patches and I needed to let it out. This was my chance. This was the time.
I told her the truth. I felt emotionally fine. I didn’t feel like I had gotten out of control these days. However there are some days when I will get a rash, or itch so bad that I want to peel my own skin off. The swelly belly and having to be super extra careful of what I consume is a lot. I feel like there is an inward pressure from myself to get my belly back down and hope it stays down. This is an ongoing battle that NO ONE told me about when I talked about the surgery. She smiled and gave me a hug. She explained about the belly swells is my body’s way of saying cut back. Not just on what I eat, but what I am doing. Cut back. She said that I have artificial hormones that is making me feel emotional even though I think I am fine. The belly is not permanent. The weight is not an issue. She let me know that I am still healing. In my head, I should be over this by now. However sadly I am not. She also let me know that the hormones is the culprit for the belly and that is normal to go up and down for about a year. A year I really was hoping that was a myth that I heard about before. But nope its like having a baby they say come back to work in 6-8 weeks but it can take up to a year to get your life back under control.
So the student said he didn’t see that it was troubling me. He based that on the fact that the scale showed the great weight loss from the year before. I talked to him about different cues he can take even from a difficult patient like I had been. I told him scale victories are awesome but I am also looking for off scale victories too. I met with my grumpy intruder that I had to set straight and they apologized to me. Reality is they were dumping their issues on me like I was attempting to do in the doctor’s office. The difference between me and the doctor is that the doctor’s office was a safe place and on me that could get you a two piece and a biscuit and I ain’t talking food.
I had to go home, not pick up the kids and get myself together. I went into full busy mode and finally I was able to relax. I was able to get it together. I’m still going to continue to do all the things I have been doing. But I guess I will have to be a little less strict on myself and let myself heal through the belly swell, and eventually all things will come into place. So if you see me in the streets and my belly is a little big just smile don’t worry the next time you see me it may or may have decided to do its thing. Who knows!
So Fall is going to be here in a few days. Yes. So I can stop hearing all of those complaining folks talking about relax. Nope now you can go and relax. Let people live. Let the Fall lovers have their time I don’t want to have to Kanye anyone over my favorite holiday but I will. I digress. Anyway with the Fall fast approaching I have made some new Fall work out/weight loss goals that I believe will help others too. Fall is the beginning of cuffing season as well as it’s the comfort food season. People will start making pies, cookies, mac and cheese, and before you know it 10 pounds have snuck up on you. To combat the heavier weight problems I have made up my personal goals that takes the edge off of everything.
I am breaking all of the Fall holidays into smaller goals. My overall goal is to maintain the weight I am in and by New Years not have to make a lose weight goal. Yes that means being at my goal weight and keeping it off. That in itself is a full-time goal. However if I look at the whole goal it may be too intimidating so here is how I am breaking up my goals.
I have a walk and a 5K at the end of the month. So all month-long, I have been working out. I started out 3 days a week but as the month quickly ends I have been hitting the gym EVERYDAY. This means when I am sick, when the weather is gloomy, nothing is stopping me from the workout. This has helped as I have noticed how much stronger I have gotten. This will help me on the run as I do not want to be the last one running. I want to be able to come out of that race with pride. I also have a girls trip the first weekend in October. Because of the closeness of the dates I will be good to go as I know I will indulge in some food that weekend too. My hope is we do a lot of walking. If not I will have to do like I do at home on the weekends and work out with the things that are around us. No I could care less if it’s just one weekend. I worked out just fine when I went to Chicago for my birthday so this girls trip will be no different. I woke up when others was sleep and did what I had to do.
The only issue I am facing is that with my hysterectomy surgery I find the swelly belly thing to be irritating. It happens that when you do too much your belly swells. I can wake up with a flat belly and by end of day or if I work out too much which I do everyday now I look 2 months pregnant. It’s annoying but I will work right through it until I heal fully and that stops.
This goal is to look good in my Halloween costume. Now please note yes I have already ordered it, have it and it fits. That isn’t the issue. It is making sure I look great in it. Last year I was a girl Mario Brother. It was cute but wearing it in the plus size section had me feeling super upset. I looked like I was squeezed into it at that. OMG. Not this year. I am going to be looking sleek and refined in my costume. I ordered and have a medium and that in itself coming from a size 14 to a 8 is a blessing. I will share my photos when Halloween comes. I am not knocking plus size women, however I know for a fact that is not the size I was supposed to be. Last year I was being lazy, and eating just to eat. I wasn’t working out like I should have and the result was easily seen. So this year I will be stepping out and looking like I should.
Thanksgiving is on the rise. I have already put in my holiday orders with my baker. Seriously I have. I will be baking things on my own but there is something nice when you can take the edge off and pay someone else and get good stuff to share at the holiday luncheons and dinners. That isn’t even adding all of the great holiday and winter drinks that I have recipes for, others make, and are going to be advertised….So now that my bakery orders are all in order I want to be able to not look like the turkey this year. Have you ever looked at holiday pictures and been like Lawd, why didn’t someone tell me I looked like that? I have and that will not be me this year. I will look cute and ready to eat and not like I ate already and need to be pushing the vegetable truck this year. I seriously love the way clothes fit on me now. I have been able to remove the big clothes out of my closet and I have gotten a few cute pieces. Once you get a dose of confidence after seeing your hard work, its hard to think about going backwards.
These 3 goals will keep me until Christmas. This Christmas I want to wear a cute Christmas pajama. Christmas pajamas is always a serious thing. Actually all of the holiday pajamas is a serious thing. I already ordered the kids Halloween pajamas and have them hanging in their closet. I am not one for last-minute anything. With that in mind the whole family always wears cute pajamas I just always snap the kids only. Not this year I will be in the pictures with my cookies in tow. I do not plan to stop eating my favorites. I plan on eating them in moderation. A little, not the whole thing of anything. I have been really good with portion control and during the Fall when it gets colder I plan on keeping it hot in what I do and how I look this Fall.
So your goals may not mimic mine but as you can see you can make monthly goals. We all need something we can attain to. For me its making sure I continue to look great as the holidays start to roll in. Having a monthly goal and something I can work towards works for me. It takes the edge off of the whole I want to have a great end goal of going into the New Year right and keeps me accountable. Plus you know all of the get togethers, fall parties, potlucks, are all destined to try to take me out but I am aware of it all and ready to knock them out with some healthy dishes to share.
Every woman is different. What one woman will put up with doesn’t apply to all. You never know what you will do until you are in it. Let me explain why I would be ready to do a pull up edition on Kevin Hart.
The cheating or the act of having sex outside your marriage isn’t the full issue for me. Maybe it should be, but it’s not. My issue is that Kevin wanted to prove so much to the world that he was the poster boy for changed behavior and KNEW he had been slipping and tipping around with another woman. For me that is cause for a pull up. I would be ready to get him on that alone. He wanted to act as if this new wife was so much better than his last. He wanted us all to believe he had changed his mind-set so much yet in reality he was doing the cheating in plain view. Cheating in plain view is when you have a conversation with your mate and denounce people who would do the same. They stay visible. They are on social media talking about you being the light of their world. Then without warning the light must have dimmed because they get caught with another person. Nothing irks a woman more than being embarrassed. I can say the same for men too. It’s the type of hurt that won’t go away with flowers and jewelry. It’s the type of hurt that burns your soul. You go all out telling others how wonderful your mate is and then you are blindsided.
Listen what Kevin doesn’t understand is his kids are older. When he cheated his kids may have been unable to read or know what is going on. However they are in private school. One thing about private schools is they are usually smaller in attendance and everyone knows everything about each other. They have to walk around where other kids ask them if its true. They may feel the need to defend their dad even in his wrong doing. Once you involve kids in your messy affairs that’s when the gloves comes off as a mother for me. I feel bad for Eniko that she is being embarrassed. I feel bad that she thought the same way you got em, wasn’t going to be the same way she would lose him. That is a principle in life that doesn’t care about your economic status.
So to Eniko who is pregnant and doesn’t need this stress, have your baby and work in your own mind what you want to do. We all have opinions but YOU have to live with his cheating and that will always overshadow your relationship. To other women who are going through this or will, know that cheating is horrible but make your next steps a decision you can live with daily. Don’t do what others think you should do as they will forget the cheating you can’t!
So today I went to church. As a PK aka a preachers kid I have been in many of churches in my time. However today’s church was an experience.
While in church there was a mother with 3 kids-2 girls and 1 toddler boy. The toddler was running around in church not listening and the mother thought it was cute. I thought I or the other nearby mothers was going to grab her let alone the child. The priest as it was a Catholic Church had already called her out for the busy child. He suggested she take the child out but she ignored the message. As she ignored the message the child kept running, kept screaming, kept being a distraction to everyone around him.
See I love the kids. I have 3 of my own and although they are not perfect anytime they are so loud and distracting to everyone around it’s been time for me to step in but she ignored the message. She didn’t want to hear that her little angel was bad. She didn’t want to adhere to maybe he needed a time out. The embarrassment wasn’t enough to get out of her seat to the point that when the child was on the altar the second time she sent her oldest who appeared to be younger than my 8 year old to get him.
I was irritated beyond belief. Like come on now mother, get your baby. Ignoring him wouldn’t stop the whole church from looking at you. It wouldn’t stop the stares, the huffing or the eye rolls. As I wanted to snatch the mother myself I had to practice self control. If I would have reacted what would have been the point?! Yes we all could have been able to hear but the reality is this little boy is a probably an issue no matter where they go. If the priest directly called her out and she didn’t care to change surely my words wouldn’t have done much.
How many of us have had life say stop, or don’t proceed and we ignore it? So I didn’t stop my eye rolls but I did get calmer than I was when the child first started out. No doubt the mother and child was the talk on everyone’s ride home. The priest even told her good luck at the end. Ignoring the things in your life that is sticking out, or out of place sometimes isn’t enough. You can go to the doctors get a bad report with suggestions and still live life like you’re fine. You ignore the message until things are so out of pocket with limited change. You can date a man who you just caught in the very act and instead of setting him free, you make excuses and simply ignore the message.
So what, just like that child is trying to get your attention? Whatever that area of your life is that is talking loud enough for you and others to see and hear, deal with that. I can’t snatch that child but I can snatch my life and get it in order. Snatch your life too!!
So today’s weather was amazing. The sun was shinning and to put it lightly it was hella hot. So other than watching my son’s soccer game, the Storr family headed to the Fall Fest.
Fall Fest has turned into a yearly indulgence. This year the whole family attended as I have been known to take the kids and have a great time. My husband is not a fan of outdoor events. I used to get super upset but nope I will pack the kids and continue with my plans. He came along and from the looks of it he may have had a good time. There are a lot of activities for the whole family. From oversized games such as Connect Four, to Chess to singing for the kids and of course Fall favorites such as Fall beer flavors and all the comfort food you can have. I elected to make a Whole Foods stop before attending to cut down on eating too many comfort foods. Plus I wanted to see how low the prices had actually dropped there. I know you know Whole Foods has merged with Amazon. I was pleasantly surprised.
However there is always room for a little beer and I made sure I had at least one and I enjoyed the hell out of it. My goal was to just get out, enjoy the weather, and spend some time with my family and the goal definitely achieved.
As Fall approaches it’s going to be important and find free events in your city to attend. This event was free besides the food and drinks. For me all it cost was less than 30 for a full day of fun. Well worth it if you ask me.
Enjoy all of the Fall activities you can!!
It’s been so long since I have done an update. This has been a very interesting week to say the least. To say TGIF is an understatement. So what’s been going on with ToiTime online and behind the scenes?
Have you been caught up? We been pushing material. Thank you for all of your support in reading, speaking up, asking questions, and just being all around awesome follower. Remember you can find me on all social media platforms such as Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and Twitter as Toitimeblog. I would suggest you get on the site ToiTime and catch yourself up. We had guest blogger, S. L. Efua Joe who is our resident Health is Wealth advisor. So you know we hit on what you are putting in your body. Cold and Flu season is coming up too so don’t think we don’t have your tips on how to survive that coming up. In the mean time take a look at the blogs and make some sound decisions. Our what’s coming up is set so check that out. September is such a busy month. There are so many things happening to keep you moving. Don’t forget to get out, get active, and enjoy Fall, it’s coming.
So as you can see its getting to be some excited weeks and months coming. I am determined to end the last quarter on a high note. I have my visions and daily checking off the list as I get closer to the goals. I hope you are doing the same.
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