I am afraid to tell my parents that I do not want to stay at their house during the holidays. How do I do it?
I would have the conversation now before the holidays really shift into gear. Try to talk to them about the why. Your why is the biggest reason as to why you made your decision and you need to be clear about it. Also be prepared. Some parents will be fine with it and will still want to spend time with you regardless. Some parents are petty and unfortunately may take it a step further and cancel you even dropping by altogether. You know the climate of your parents but being an adult means sometimes you have to do what’s best for you. You not staying at their house doesn’t make you any less their child. Its going to come down to you being okay with their response, show respect always but not letting them or anyone tell you or convince you that your decision is wrong. Usually unchecked emotions and conversations that should have been had will creep up during the holidays and this is why you need to break the news to them now. You don’t need to create issues during the actual holidays if you don’t havea to. It will be easier to get it off of your chest and heart. It may not be as bad as you think, the stress of having someone over during the holidays could be relieved for you and them. You won’t know until you do it. Put your big girl panties on, talk about it and go from there.
Will my boyfriend propose? It is making me nervous and I don’t know how to deal.
I don’t know if he will propose. I would think that you know the status of your relationship. Are you ready to be wife is the question. Are you ready to take in another person because you have done all the work to be a whole woman? You can have the proposal in the back of your mind. Holidays are a perfect proposal time but don’t play your feelings to be all ready for it and it doesn’t happen. I always tell women to be ideal in the timeline of their relationship. If you haven’t at the very least been with a man through all of the seasons, have been past the honeymoon stage, seen him angry, seen how he does with his family, been around his family and know the dynamics that WILL affect you in your relationship down the line, pump your breaks. You need time to get there. Also if you feel that you have are you ready to be a wife vs a bride. There’s a difference. There are many who love the idea of a big party, and pretty dress, flowers, and photos but don’t want to be a wife that has to deal with when your man for an example loses his job and needs to lean on you. Be careful that your ideology of what marriage looks like isn’t taking over. Also have a time in mind that you refuse to sit and wait. Yes create your own ultimatum but do not tell him. This isn’t be secretive this is real. If you won’t honor yourself in what you will or won’t tolerate than you won’t make him honor you either. Make your moves and stop waiting around for him to do anything. We put so much pressure on the man and not enough on our own happiness. This will be key if you want to be a wife so you can be that bomb wife but still complete and go after your own goals.
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