Well the day has been rainy and I really wanted to just relax on my lunch break and that’s code for read magazines and eat. However when I looked at my calendar and thanked the Lord for allowing me to finally get to 8 weeks post surgery, I got super excited. Then I got really sad when I saw I have less than a month to get in shape for a 5k and a walk that I have in the same weekend in September. I started to get anxiety as if I wouldn’t be ready in time. I decided that instead of worrying about it, it was time to get in the gym. So I did and I didn’t die.
I really wanted to wait until next week but then I thought about my whole mantra I have lived by which is not to put it off. So I tied my hair until a bun, put my sweat bands on and headed in the rain to the gym. The whole time I wanted to make a turn and roll out but I kept going. At first I was super intimidated. I was like girl you ain’t ready, just work on something productive and you will feel just as good. Then I thought about today being national failures day and I was like naw, I got to keep on going. I got in the gym and stretched and then got to work. Let me say that I have done some exercises towards the end of my surgery but its a whole other ball game when you’re in the gym. I wanted to take things slow but the reality is that even when I took sports in high school slow doesn’t always motivate me so I played a game with each song to push myself and change the intervals while doing cardio. Until tomorrow with a new song line up, I can’t wait to crush it again.
So all in all I have to say I hope that getting back into the swing of things will boost my energy. I have noticed that every 2 day I have to go to bed before 9pm. I can’t go much longer than two days before I feel like someone hit me with a car even with taking all of my vitamins. So maybe that will change but 2 months later a few weeks taking them and I am no longer on go all the time. My hormones have finally leveled out. The night sweats have decreased and so has the hot flashes. That is a blessing let me tell you. I still carry my fan with me I refuse to be out here and not prepared that’s for sure.
A lot of the issues that I had prior to surgery has gone away. I am super happy to feel like I am a healthy woman again. Finding out that a lot of this needed to be corrected years ago has been hard as I pushed to have these things done but not by the right doctor who would listen. So now with the right doctors in place, life has gotten so much easier.
So I look forward to a few things. As the year is in its last quarter or very close to it, I have some fitness goals yet to work on.
- Maintain my weight
- Ability to choose the costume for Halloween I want. Last year although cute, I felt like an over sized Mario Brothers (female version) with sausage arms.
- Not look like I am the mini turkey for Thanksgiving (won’t see my sausage arms in this year’s pics)
- Get to the New Years with an awesome little number (dress) even if I don’t go anywhere. You know if my husband and I don’t go out I throw a mean family party. I’ll be the flyest in-house mom ever.
- To be able to look back on this year and know my goal for 2018 won’t be to lose any weight but to maintain it. You know the years prior I would make a goal and never work at it, never achieve it, but it was a “goal” I had in the back of my mind since surely my body didn’t do the work to get there.
So ladies and gentleman thank you all for rocking out with me during this hysterectomy journey. All of the ups and downs have all been worth this moment of clarity and health. Be vigilant about your health and complete your goals!
Well cue in the music I have survived my first week back to work. I really love the fact that all things were back in normal shape. Everyone hadn’t really changed as much so getting back into the routine was easy.
Now the part I didn’t anticipate is how tired I have been. Like the type of tired where you wake up and forget where you are tired. I have been battling this all week. I have gone back to all of my vitamins that the doctor prescribed. I took a break until I knew how my body was healing. My doctor approved this for me. We wanted to get me at a base line to see where I was. So I am not sure if it’s a combination of that, having to be up at 545 in the morning or just my body trying to adjust me to normal life. Whatever it is I am totally over it.
I had a great week if you take the tiredness out. My job had a welcome back party for me and that was super nice and unexpected. To be honest I was expecting nothing but long emails and work to get through. So it was appreciated to feel missed. It took me over 45 minutes to remember all of my passwords. That was funny. By lunch time on my first day I had it down and I even got all of my items that I normally done by then. It was just weird. Another issue is that I am mellowing out more than I ever have in life. Like the type of mellow when your kids spell everything at the same time after you just mopped but you calmly just clean it up and walk away type of vibe. I find myself looking at myself like girl who are you?! I don’t recognize myself these days. It’s a good thing. It has to be the lower amount of hormones that I am experiencing. Whatever it is I feel like I am always sipping coffee in a good mood type of women.
Also I got braids in while I was off so a lot of people walked right past me and didn’t recognize me. That was funny. I gave it a day and then went to some of my colleagues and was like hey girl I am back. Hair can change you I suppose. No matter what small obstacles have occurred all I can say is I am glad to be back to work and hoping that this exhaustion will soon go away. I went to bed at almost 530 last night. I mean like real sleep none of that watching tv stuff either. Shout out to my boss who is super understanding during this transition. Its week 7 so one more week until physically I should be okay. It takes a year to get your body where you want it overall.
So its back to the normal grind, anniversary is over and time to get my kids focused for back to school. I am at least done with the back to school shopping so that is an A+ in my book. Have a great weekend and be on the continued lookout as more blogs come your way. August is going to be a great month. Don’t forget to enjoy the last moments of Summer. I have 2 more items to cross of my list but I am determined to be able to look back and say I had a good one. I hope the same for you.
Happy national donut day!! I had one and I mean only one donut and couldn’t really eat much of anything else. I forced myself to have a healthy lunch because that donut was definitely a lot of empty carbs. Well I hope you all had a good week. We are coming off a 4 day weekend some of us anyway from Memorial Day. I hope you had a great holiday weekend. We celebrated my daughter’s birthday and had a really good weekend. No complaints. So as far as this short week it has definitely been filled with a lot of ups and downs. So let’s get into it.
Personal Highs/Personal Lows
This week I am going to put these two categories together. There is a lot going on and I told you lovelies I would update you. One we had a great time celebrating my now 8-year-old. Time is flying when you’re having fun right? We are also gearing up for my son’s preschool graduation. I know some people make a big deal that these types of graduations are pointless but it just gives the little people something to look forward to. I personally feel like celebrations are what makes life great. Those who know me know I will make his day special. That’s what I do. I feel like life is about making memories that they can look back on. It’s better than buying a bunch of material things.
Also this week I have been vigilant with my doctors to get me an answer. I have been suffering with migraines for quite some time. I am also anemic. However with the new diet my doctor made sure I had all of the supplements that one would need and I increased all of the iron enriched foods so you would think I was good right? Wrong. I am not. My doctors and I have decided that it was time to get a hysterectomy. I know for some they get it done when they have fibroids. I do not have them. I am losing too much blood. My blood volumes and levels are one step to more transfusions. For some they would say, why not start a pill that would decrease your period. However the thing is that I have already done that. I have been on pills off and on. I got my tubes tied when I had my 3rd and last child. I know some would say why put this out there? One its MY BODY and my page. Secondly being a woman going through women issues is not a place of shame and I refuse to hide like I did something wrong. That is pure craziness. Why would I keep it hush-hush when there are millions of women like me going through the same thing.
I am no wonder. I won’t be the first or the last. Ladies my decision was about what was best for me. I have to do what I need to do for ME. Was my husband there? Absolutely. I know my decision will have an affect temporarily on my home but I had to do what was best for me. No need to lose this weight, do all of this work and still be underlying unhealthy. That is sheer madness. I know what I need to do and I know what can happen if I don’t. I love me and I need to be here as well as I have little people who need to have a healthy mom. So with that in mind in the next week that is what I will be doing. Have I researched all of the options? Absolutely. This has been an ongoing back and forth thing. I am prepared for the steps after. I do NOT claim to know it all. However I am fully aware that the steps towards self-love will help me through the down side of this procedure. So with MY family’s support we will be fine. I have learned to tune out some of the naysayers. They will say don’t let them take nothing out. Meanwhile I can’t count on them to watch my kids when I am somewhere bleeding out. I can’t slide them a bill when I am off of work and missing time off. I can’t count on them to pick up a phone call to say how is it going. You see that was a free nugget right? I refuse to give folks who show you they are more concerned with their bottom line than mine make my health decisions. Got to keep pushing towards what will work for me and the ones that have to live through all of this.
So with that in mind you may see an increase in blogs. I will have more down time. Whenever I have downtime, I write and I read so be on the look out. I plan to blog the hell out of this situation. Not to get sympathy. I am one strong cookie. But to raise awareness. My heart goes out to the women who are medically forced to make this decision and desire to have children and can’t. I have 3 kids and already put in place the parimeters not to have more already. There is no child birth loss for me. So for the ladies with this loss, it is a loss. I researched this and I find comfort in reading other blogs of women who have gone through this. And with life we are all connected. Keep me in prayer and stay logged on twitter (toitiemblog) and facebook ( https://www.facebook.com/toitimeladies/) as I will update.
- Kathy Griffin out here with a replica of Donald Trump being beheaded and it has set off this major storm on insensitivity. I think for me and this is where MY opinion comes off. It was a bit much. However if the same ones were upset when the nooses was being shown with imagery of Obama was shown and not because he is Black alone but on the principle of right and wrong than okay. If not than you just being extra. What people don’t get is that your argument is more valid when it’s based on principle. Meaning you would extend the same sympathy to another like you want it done for your favorite than you have merit.
- Ireland will have its first openly gay prime minister after Leo Varadkar was elected into the office.
- Withdraw of Paris climate agreement.
- Continuation of the Russian influence of the election. Continue to stand by for breaking news of this ongoing legal battle.
So I pray you all enjoy your weekend. There are some good movies. I saw Wonder Woman and as I thought without giving things away, I walked away feeling great about being a woman. I may see it again if you’re looking for a quick should you go or not-there you go. I am taking the kids to see Captain Underpants tonight. Summer movies are really heating up. I plan on some me time and I have to work. So find an activity that you enjoy and make yourself feel like the beautiful gem that you are.