4 Weeks Almost Half Way There!

I finally have my date set to go back to work. Yay! I don’t even know how I’ll feel going back. All this time to recover and get my body and mind together I feel like I’m on a forever vacation. None the less I must return and at the end of the month literally I’ll be back to business as usual.

So until that day I will recover, enjoy my time off and continue on my way. One of the things I am liking but not liking are the little things that are coming out during this time. One is just my adjustment to the people around me. My hormones are leveling out. I have such a ways to go but I am noticing that I am able to jump back into some things quicker.

When I was in Wildwood I had to take a break from the crowd and gather my thoughts. A large part of that had to do with physical pain as I was able to relax and get it together. Then this weekend opened my eyes to a few things. I’m learning that I can’t control much and to be okay when things fall apart. Not to be so quick to fix things. To let a few things take its time. I am a worrier by nature. If I feel like my world isn’t in it’s place that fear makes me get more involved. The issue with that is I usually make things worst. So right now I am learning to enjoy the peace in the midst of confusion.

I remember growing up and my parents trying to teach me that lesson. I am quick witted and usually my mouth is sharp. Although that’s an excellent trait to have when needed it can back fire. At this point I’m learning to be vulnerable and be at peace. If for whatever reason things don’t line up it wasn’t supposed to. I don’t need to keep everything or everyone around me okay. 

So it’s the little lessons that are the best when I open myself to learn. There will be many more lessons I’m sure of it. But when you aren’t in the normal flow of life and you have no choice to slow down you get it. Like my mom would say your bulb comes on. And trust me I don’t like it but it’s necessary.

So as I go into week 5 I have some loose ends to fix. For instance I have some stuff with my job to get in line and all I can say is somebody lift your sister in prayer. I am definitely the type to have my paperwork in order and I found that I’m not dealing with the same belief system. I’ll blog about it once it’s taken care of. I also have quite a  number of appointments yet to attend to. I’m going back to work on week 6 but reality is it won’t be 100% until week 8.  I contemplated taking the entire 8 weeks off but I’ll be okay to go back to work at week 6. 

I also have to get some things situated on the home life. My goal is to have a few things done ahead of time to make my work transition a little easier. I will do a soft attempt to get back into a soft work out. Yes you read that right. This week I’ll do longer walks and see how I do weaning off of ibuprofen. I will also do some test runs during the time I would be at work. That way I can see how I may hold with no nap. Yes I said naps. I love and know I will miss my naps when I go back to work. Trust me if you had the ability to take a nap here and there you would be on it. So here’s to another week of the hot flashes. And hoping that the tiredness and irritability goes down as well.

So here’s to stepping into week 5!! Have a great week!! I hope you are enjoying your Summer. I still will be doing my beach day. Either this week or next before I go back to work. A day by myself to regroup and align myself for the rest of the summer and prepare some goals for the Fall!! I like to think of it as a personal retreat if you will.

Thank you all who prayed or thought of my family and I as we celebrated my mother in law’s birthday this past weekend. Continue to lift up our family in prayer and thoughts especially my husband. 

Recovery week 3.0

I am super happy that I have finally made it to my 3rd week. It was a struggle to get here. I am finally getting around better. That in itself is a blessing. 

So from the beginning pain management was my first order to resolve. I took myself off of the stronger medication days after surgery. I am just never been a fan of narcotics. So now I am only managing my pain by Ibupofen and finding I need it less. So it sounds like I’m doing well but let’s hit the issues that have happened. I have been making sure I don’t bend as much as I really want to. It’s not natural to not use my abdominal muscles. We use them for everything. So y’all pray for me and my husband who snaps at me for doing the most. 

Fluid on the lungs 

Now I don’t know if this has happened because of the surgery or some underlying issue that I wasn’t aware of but it is something that has happened. So I am now under the care of a pulmonary doctor. Yay me!! It’s been annoying. But it’s all apart of getting better so I have to take the good with the bad.

Antibiotics 

I still have to finish my medication as I got the infection almost into the second week of surgery. So I hate taking pills I really do but it’s important that I finish these nasty tasting pills.  I have been taking them with coffee to cut down on the taste.

Things I can’t do:

Full work out. It’s not even on my radar. 

I have increased walking. So I will most likely fire up the Fitbit this week. I let that sucker’s battery die lol. No need when the longest distance I was walking was to the bathroom and to the front door. I was looking for shoes for my husband and he wears a size 15 yesterday. After a few stores I found them and definitely got my step count in. That counts right?! Super yes! 

Sex

I feel sorry for my husband but it’s 8 weeks total before the party can even start. Some women have tried it before the 8 weeks and all I can say to that is good for you. As far as I am concerned the thought of sex scares me at this point. The reason for emphasis on this particular topic is for women who are sexually intimate with their mate this is the number 2 question that is asked. When can sex resume? It doesn’t matter what type of hysterectomy surgery you have giving your body time to heal properly will ensure a better sex life. Painful sex and injury is the one thing that leads women back into their Obgyn’s office if done too soon. So my husband can tak to me in 5 weeks!! 

Return to work

I have up to 6 weeks left of sick time. So I can go back from now until the next 3 weeks. I will go back when I can go a full day without as much pain and can resume my responsibilities. I am always on the go with work and add my family in that and it’s overload. I am no hurry to rush back and not be 100%. For now work will be there. The time for me to be right is now. 

Lifting more than 10 pounds

I still not able to lift much right now. I think the most I have lifted was a small basket and even that my husband was up in arms about it. It’s not natural for me to sit and watch him take care of the house. The fun part has been watching him. He doesn’t do things like I would but guess what? All is well and that’s all that matters.

Hormone replacement therapy

The other day was probably the worst night of all since this surgery. I had the worst night sweats and hot flash. I was having chest pains all at the same time. I felt like I was having what I would think a stroke was. It was horrible. It finally passed. I saw my doctor the next day who gave her opinion on taking me off of the hormone therapy patch. I am going to give it until the end of the month before making the final decision. 

I feel like it hasn’t really helped relieve hot flashes or night sweats. It has helped regulate my moods. This weekend would be my normal cycle and I have noticed that the PMS symptoms that would normally plague my life don’t even exist. No crankiness. No need to kill anyone. I haven’t noticed more bad eating habits like salty chips and chocolate. Oh and my anemia has already improved. I used to eat ice like it was apart of the food pyramid. Now ice don’t even taste right. It’s actually for just keeping a drink cold. Who woulda thunk? 

This week my doctor has encouraged me to try swimming. I will give that a try. Swimming could be really therapeutic and hey a pool has my name written all over it!! 

So as usual I will keep you posted. Oh and my swelly belly that I had is coming down. My doctor says that the big belly at this point will appear when I am doing more than I need to. Dually noted!! 

So until next week!! Have some fun. Get out and complete your summer goals!! 

Weekly Recap: June 2, 2017

Happy national donut day!! I had one and I mean only one donut and couldn’t really eat much of anything else.  I forced myself to have a healthy lunch because that donut was definitely a lot of empty carbs.  Well I hope you all had a good week.  We are coming off a 4 day weekend some of us anyway from Memorial Day.  I hope you had a great holiday weekend.  We celebrated my daughter’s birthday and had a really good weekend.  No complaints.  So as far as this short week it has definitely been filled with a lot of ups and downs.  So let’s get into it.

Personal Highs/Personal Lows

This week I am going to put these two categories together.  There is a lot going on and I told you lovelies I would update you.  One we had a great time celebrating my now 8-year-old.  Time is flying when you’re having fun right?  We are also gearing up for my son’s preschool graduation. I know some people make a big deal that these types of graduations are pointless but it just gives the little people something to look forward to. I personally feel like celebrations are what makes life great.  Those who know me know I will make his day special.  That’s what I do.  I feel like life is about making memories that they can look back on.  It’s better than buying a bunch of material things.

Also this week I have been vigilant with my doctors to get me an answer.  I have been suffering with migraines for quite some time.  I am also anemic.  However with the new diet my doctor made sure I had all of the supplements that one would need and I increased all of the iron enriched foods so you would think I was good right?  Wrong.  I am not.  My doctors and I have decided that it was time to get a hysterectomy.  I know for some they get it done when they have fibroids.  I do not have them.  I am losing too much blood.  My blood volumes and levels are one step to more transfusions.  For some they would say, why not start a pill that would decrease your period. However the thing is that I have already done that.  I have been on pills off and on.  I got my tubes tied when I had my 3rd and last child.  I know some would say why put this out there?  One its MY BODY and my page.  Secondly being a woman going through women issues is not a place of shame and I refuse to hide like I did something wrong.  That is pure craziness.  Why would I keep it hush-hush when there are millions of women like me going through the same thing.

I am no wonder. I won’t be the first or the last.  Ladies my decision was about what was best for me.  I have to do what I need to do for ME.  Was my husband there? Absolutely.  I know my decision will have an affect temporarily on my home but I had to do what was best for me.  No need to lose this weight, do all of this work and still be underlying unhealthy.  That is sheer madness.  I know what I need to do and I know what can happen if I don’t.  I love me and I need to be here as well as I have little people who need to have a healthy mom.  So with that in mind in the next week that is what I will be doing.  Have I researched all of the options?  Absolutely. This has been an ongoing back and forth thing.  I am prepared for the steps after.  I do NOT claim to know it all. However I am fully aware that the steps towards self-love will help me through the down side of this procedure.  So with MY family’s support we will be fine.  I have learned to tune out some of the naysayers.  They will say don’t let them take nothing out. Meanwhile I can’t count on them to watch my kids when I am somewhere bleeding out.  I can’t slide them a bill when I am off of work and missing time off.  I can’t count on them to pick up a phone call to say how is it going.  You see that was a free nugget right?  I refuse to give folks who show you they are more concerned with their bottom line than mine make my health decisions.  Got to keep pushing towards what will work for me and the ones that have to live through all of this.

So with that in mind you may see an increase in blogs.  I will have more down time. Whenever I have downtime, I write and I read so be on the look out. I plan to blog the hell out of this situation.  Not to get sympathy. I am one strong cookie.  But to raise awareness.  My heart goes out to the women who are medically forced to make this decision and desire to have children and can’t.  I have 3 kids and already put in place the parimeters not to have more already.  There is no child birth loss for me.  So for the ladies with this loss, it is a loss.  I researched this and I find comfort in reading other blogs of women who have gone through this.  And with life we are all connected.  Keep me in prayer and stay logged on twitter (toitiemblog) and facebook ( https://www.facebook.com/toitimeladies/) as I will update.

News

  1. Kathy Griffin out here with a replica of Donald Trump being beheaded and it has set off this major storm on insensitivity.  I think for me and this is where MY opinion comes off.  It was a bit much.  However if the same ones were upset when the nooses was being shown with imagery of Obama was shown and not because he is Black alone but on the principle of right and wrong than okay.  If not than you just being extra.  What people don’t get is that your argument is more valid when it’s based on principle.  Meaning you would extend the same sympathy to another like you want it done for your favorite than you have merit.
  2. Ireland will have its first openly gay prime minister after Leo Varadkar was elected into the office.
  3. Withdraw of Paris climate agreement.
  4. Continuation of the Russian influence of the election.  Continue to stand by for breaking news of this ongoing legal battle.

So I pray you all enjoy your weekend.  There are some good movies. I saw Wonder Woman and as I thought without giving things away, I walked away feeling great about being a woman.  I may see it again if you’re looking for a quick should you go or not-there you go.  I am taking the kids to see Captain Underpants tonight.  Summer movies are really heating up.  I plan on some me time and I have to work.  So find an activity that you enjoy and make yourself feel like the beautiful gem that you are.